(“Unwritten”-By MilkCookie–www.deviantart.com)

I am the type to envelop myself in drama if for some reason I find myself involved.  If I become entrenched in a drama, it is sometimes the ONLY thing that I can think about, analyzing then over analyzing, thinking and over thinking.  It distracts me to no end. I promised myself that this new year would bring a different mentality, a different mindset to how I face things in my relationships with friends, lovers and family.

Put simply…if there is a problem, find the solution.  What use is there dwelling on the issue at hand and going over and over it without thinking of a resolution to it? Honesty and  communication is key to everything. I am following that to a strcit T nowadays.  There should be no hiding, no omitting of the truth, no lying, no argument, no drama…no bullshit.

I am a true believer in living for the moment. I try my best to do what makes me happy no matter what because I have spent too much time rearranging my life, my days and hours to accomodate someone, be it friend or lover. I was so fearful of being abandoned…. of anger directed towards me that I’d neglect what I deemed most important to my life just to maintain that relationship.  I denied myself in order to give to them.  And even when I did…even when I bit my tongue, rearranged my life, neglected and isolated areas of my life for them…they still were not happy. 

I realized then that no matter how hard I try, there are some people in your life that fade away and find themselves in a past chapter of your life.  Shit happens, people change, chapters close, and pages turn.  It’s the way it goes. You just have to bite the bullet, brave the wind and face the music…. live…. keep on trucking. Even when it feels like the truck just hit you…. hard. Your life is YOURS…not theirs.  Why live for someone that has not come from your womb or placed a ring on your finger nor has your blood in their veins?  Even then… who dictates what is written on the pages of your story?  Yeah…ONLY you!

I have swept the dust off of my shoulders and stood brave against the storm.  I have been through mountains of obstacles and oceans of tears and I realize that I have always come out wiser, stronger…but more importantly, alive (for the most part…LoL). Nothing can stop me… and even if I crawl along this road I have paved for myself, I am proud that I am finally on the right path…proud that it is what makes ME happy, that it is everything to ME…that it is important to ME.  I am living MY life for ME. It is what it is because that is what I choose it to be. Dig?

 You can survive if you only find the strength and the courage to stand tall. Nothing feels better than dropping the baggage.  Your choices are your own. Love who you want to love, live how you want to live (do it safely of course).

But most of all realize this.

TODAY is the most important moment of your life. What you do, say, and create in this moment will dictate all of your tomorrows.  Anger and frustration gets you nowhere but to some fucked up tomorrows.

I do this blog for a number of reasons. I am enamored with fashion photography, as you can tell. LoL. I love sharing what I think is beautiful.  I love to support my friends who have their own sites and passions and art.  I love using words to create a story, an image, an emotion.  But most of all, I do this blog, because it makes me happy. It inspires me, it enlightens me…it soothes me. And every day that I find the courage to hit pen to paper, I burst forth into my happiness, leap into my life. It makes me exactly who I am. With no help, no handouts, no bullshit…and recently…no damn drama.

*smile*

I hope you have that kind of thing in your lives.  And if you feel you don’t….I pray that you find it.

I love you all.

Angelique Imani