(“Broken” By Chelloveck–www.deviantart.com)

Part IV: The Very End

I was waiting for this…
I had seen the words hanging on your bottom lip…
quivering with your own sadness…
yet I still don’t understand why.

You tell me it’s for the best…
That you need to do this for the better of us…
for the better of you…
And I digest all that I knew was coming…
For I felt it there too.

This heavy feeling of the curtains falling..
But it was my fingers looking for a way out to stage…
While you stole away to play another part.

And the hurt echoes along the emptied walls of my heart.

I have exhausted every ounce of strength, effort, and love…
Moving mountains for you was like orbitting the planets for me…
and I am tired of fighting a losing battle.

So…
I waited for this day to come…
Pushed this moment to its fruition
Because the love that had blossomed once,
Had long been wilted from your neglect.

And now…

I waited for what my faith in you could not say.

So, today…
as you speak words of letting go…
I know the hurt will fade in time…
But now? Here? Now?
With the words dripping off lips I once kissed…
It’s killing me…

I fear the fading of once treasured moments between us…
The tides of our demise washing away one set of footprints…
and then it’s only me, here… alone…
without you.

I felt this too…
Had known our chapter had come to a close…
Known our love had perished with the silence you stabbed me with…
I had felt it all along.

Yet, I let you believe you were still saving me from myself…
Allowed you to brag of your courage to walk,
even as I rose above you….

And still….
The sliver of hope in my soul that you…
could possibly be someone different….
This too shall pass.

(“You Could Save Me”- by D-Filler-www.deviantart.com)

Part III: The Beginning of The End

The sand clock spills grains of time into a pile…
And here I am, cupping my hands to save it all from ending…
My heart aches in every crevice…
I long for those days when the scent of your sleep was comforting…
and I breathed in your skin like new air….

But now…
your back is to me…
and I still cling to you…
tears dampening your shoulderblades…
Because this wall of your flesh is too hard to climb over…

I pray that you’ll turn over and hold me…
whisper that you love me…
I hold my breath for this…
Fantasizing of a moment of clarity…

But…
I know this is broken….
beyond fixing…
the damage irreparable…
What’s done is done…
My over-reactions cause your non-reactions…
which puts another tear in my paper thin heart…

I wish
you would just
listen to me…
I’m yelling from light years away…
you stand on one side and I on the other….
and I’m screaming for your attention…
but all I hear is my echo on the lilt of the wind….

Yelling to a closed door…
Pounding on my heart with the hammers of your silence….
I cry in the hollow of your spine…
I wish you could understand…
I’m trying….

But I am so insignificant to you now…
Pennies of my love tossed in disarray…
Un-needed…un-wanted…
and I ask myself….
How much more will this cost me?

(“Together”-By UnquietSpirit- www.deviantart.com)

Part II: The Comforting Middle

I am swept up in this…

Us…

You and I… together…

We…are together…

Completely and totally…

and I can’t see straight because these rose-colored glasses

are pressing against my face like a mask…

You’re here and you’re mine…

And I love you…

I need you…

I love you.

And it’s unreal how solid it feels to hold your hand…

As if the lines on your palm were written to match mine…

How the simple words of affection are now magnified…

How our routine is real and comforting…

How hugs can mean solace…

and kisses are the seal on my day…

I am content…

Here…

Breathing this all in…

Drinking you all in…

settling into our path with hands clasped…

Together.

There’s a future ahead of us that I can see now…

Beautiful and brilliant …

And I’ll use all of my love to dig through the debris of old hurts…

so that we…you and I…

can love together…freely…deeply…truly…

Even the word “us’ is a comfort to my senses…

the words “you” and “I” a blessing to my heart…

I believe in this blessing….

I trust in those words…

And our future so tangible it melts this once cold heart….

You and I …Us…

Together…

Completely and Totally…

(“Love -You” By Aniviel –www.deviantart.com)

Part I: The Sweet Beginnings

I would move mountains for you….
Push ranges askew so that you…
could see the heavens more clearly beyond the horizon…
You close your eyes…
And I inhale the moment with every fiber of my heart…
I trace the lines of your tattoos with my fingertip….
and wonder if this…is even real…
or is this the euphoric intoxication…
of some hallucinogen gone terribly wrong and I….
am just bugging the fuck out….?

How can this even exist?
These intimate moments where I can count your eyelashes,
the soft lines across your lips,
and the flecks of gold in your hair?
I feel as if I can’t breathe…
and all of the answers lie in your calloused hands…
Rubbing circles into the small of my back…

A smile spreads like sunrise across your face,
and you pull me closer to you…
and my insecurities wash away with the tears of contented joy
springing to my eyes and blooming across my cheeks…
My guarded heart’s door pries open
as you bury your face in my hair…
and the world shatters into a million pieces…
and we’re alone…
floating here on this cloud…

Give me the antidote to this delicious poison…
this savory torment
that makes me whole and rips me apart simultaneously.

Tell me what I’ve heard before to make this real….
Because I can’t believe this moment is all mine to hold…

My heart swells and pounds with you….
Beginning with you….
Ending with you….