(“Veronica Wants to Die” – by EeehOoops —www.deviantart.com)

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[I have gotten used to writing directly to you guys as opposed to just writing only in metaphors and florid imagery. Poetry is DEFINITELY my heart but sometimes, you just have to vent, right? I officially dub these postings as the "Lemme Holla Atchu For a Second" category.  Almost like I'm pulling you to the side for a chit chat, a pep talk, a hug. *smile*  I just hope that some of what I write in these postings and in my poetry and even when I post through quotes, lyrics and so forth can be of some inspiration and guidance to some of you. ]

In saying that, let me begin by saying this week has been a hell of a rollercoaster. I have probably worried myself into exhaustion over health issues, suspected my heart of lying to me countless times and become too frustrated with issues not in my control.  I promised myself that this year I would react less and think more. I can only say now that doing so is not as easy as I imagined.

I have had to put my insecurities into check recently. I am a full fledged supporter of communication and honesty and yet, I found it difficult to say what hung heavy in my heart. Which had me thinking about my trust level in regards to my newly rekindled relationship. Did we have a tumultuous beginning? Abso-fucking-lutely. But I made a decision to try again….so to be suspicious, to be insecure enough to distrust what I allowed back in my heart, began to seem foolish.

I can’t sit here and say I have an idea of what the future will be and that this man will never hurt me again, but if that were even to happen….. I can say that I vocalized my fears, my worries, and my demands clearly from jump. I demand respect, as any woman should. There are things and issues that don’t always sit well with me and things that I have to accept for what it is. Yet, I am okay with it all as long as I am not thrown into the dark to feel around and figure it out for myself. As long as communication and honesty is a strong thread in the tapestry of our lives together, I am good with it all. See….I chose this…and I believe that it is worth fighting for….and that I, yes, me…..that my love is worth the fight, the struggle, and the beauty.

The weirdest part though was that my worst fear during this rollercoaster of a week was that if it ends so soon, how could I face the world? How could I preach to you guys about love and righteous affection when my own relationship seemed to be falling apart? I was scared of the eventual “You did it to yourself” talks. I was scared of the humiliation. And then… it hit me. The world wouldn’t matter. No misstep or mistake would be relevant in the grand scheme of things. It would be my hurt, my lesson, my walk. I made the choice and it is up to me to discern the outcome and the lessons learned from each day living it. No one else’s thoughts, opinions, comments or feelings about it matters in the bigger picture.

You see, everybody has something that they’re “supposed to” do. You’re supposed to finish highschool and then immediately finish college. You’re supposed to meet a man, get married, have a shitload of kids and live happily ever after. You’re supposed to be some Xena warrior princess all the time who can shake off a broken heart but never forgive it.

Well, to ALL of that, I always like to say what if MY “supposed to’s” are not what the world thinks they should be? What if I was “supposed to” lead my life exactly the way I have been? And if I do fuck up, make the wrong choices, lose friends, turn pages, get my heart broken and stumble a million and one times….the only thing I am “supposed to” do is get up for the millionth and second time and walk my own path.

So what I want you ALL to realize is one thing. Your life is dictated by you. Your actions today dictate every single one of your tomorrows. But, remember that this is YOUR path, so the peanut galleries and the two cents given need to be ignored and discarded. Unless you are in danger or are harming your self, no one has the right to tell you what kind of life you’re “supposed to” be living. Your choices and the postivity or negativity that resonates from them should be embraced as life lessons, ya dig?

FTW and its opinions and keep walking your own path. You got this.

As Eddie Kendricks sings “Keep on truckin’ baby….”

As far as for me? If the shit hits the fan, I will be one shitty survivor….operative word being “survivor,” ya dig?

Until next time my darlings….

@Imani_Sublime <—– follow me on Twitter!!!!

(((PS—-> The title of the art piece featured on this posting is kinda dark.  Please excuse the morbidity of it. I liked the photo…LoL. *shrug*)))

(“Cold Heart” by Peaches_Ana—www.deviantart.com)

Using the prompt of @writingprompt : “elegant tragedy”

She pulls at her heartstrings….
spreads herself too thin…
stretches who she is…
to become what he wants….

An impeccable flower…
unbruised by the elements…
A star unscathed by the universe…
a virginal white rose.

But deep in her soul…
she crawls on hot coals of discontent…
her heart beating only for his pleasure….
Nothing but his approval can soothe her.

Lost in the desperation of her twisted reflections…
Despairing in her flawed beauty…
wincing at his cold words…
Melting with his warm kisses…

He must love her…..

He should….

If only she could match the steps of angels
he sees in the street…
She could never
be the feathered goddess in his dreams….
Never be the siren of his illusions…

So she swathes herself in her confusion…
an elegance behind her sadness…..
and falls deeper into the tragedy of her own creation…
Attempts to improve perfection for his love….

If only she could see the warrior buried in her eyes.

Her heart is what blinds her to the beauty of her own love.

Excerpt taken from “Just Kids” a memoir written by Patti Smith:

“Robert had little patience with these introspective bouts of mine. He never seemed to question his artistic drives, and by his example, I understood that what matters is the work: the string of words propelled by God becoming a poem, the weave of color and graphite scrawled upon the sheet that magnifies His motion. To achieve within the work a perfect balance of faith and execution. From this state of mind comes a light, life-charged.”

My boyfriend hit me up regarding Dasic Fernandez, a Chilean artist who has just recently moved to the U.S.

I quickly fell in love with his amazing work, vivid and charged with energy. The blog he has IS in Spanish, but even if you don’t read or speak the language, his work speaks for itself.

Amazing photos and spray paint work often etched with political relevance in mind, I imagine this young man to have a flourishing career in the States.

Take a look at the site even if you don’t understand Spanish. His work is unbelievable. Some of his work is featured below.

For professional inquiries please email him (he reads English as well) at : Dasic7@gmail.com

(“Fuego” Spray Paint on Canvas)

(“Carmenere”- Spray paint on cancas)

If you are a fan of the blog, you know I have the uber girl crush on Scarlett. LOL. She is just stunning.

 I saw her recently on David Letterman and she is by far the classiest and most elegant female in Young Hollywood. She will be playing Black Widow in “Iron Man 2″ (can NOT wait for that movie!!!!).

She is just goooooooorgeous on the April 2010 cover of Elle Canada.  These were also featured in the January 2010 issue of Elle France.  Check out the photos below.

Photography by Tom Munro

This is one of my dearest friends, Erika Dickstein. She is an AMAZING artist….I truly believe in her talent.

I have HARASSED her about creating a blog that features her unique art (intensely detailed, delicate sketches she creates on POSTiT notes) and her jewelry (trendy, droolworthy and delicate bobbles). 

FINALLY…after a night full of laughs, food (lots of food…LOL) and creativity, the blog was created with a little pressure from me…LOL. It features photos of her art, her jewelry and her life. She even has a category called “The People’s PosTiTs” in which she posts readers’ photos of their OWN PosTits saying hello that they send to her via email…AWESOME idea.

Want to request a custom design for one of her PosTiTs?

Want a unique ONE of a KIND piece of jewelry?

Want to say hi via your OWN PosTiT???
Hit her up at ErikaDickstein@gmail.com and follow her on Twitter @BigRedE

Check out some of her work below.  Can you believe these are done on POST-IT NOTES???!!!! Yeah…me either!

(“Scars” by Mary-cherry-me — www.deviantart.com)

For the Warrior, there is no such thing as impossible love.

He is not intimidated by silence, indifference, or rejection. He knows that behind the mask of ice that people wear, there beats a heart of fire.

This is why the warrior takes more risks than other people. He is constantly seeking the love of someone, even if that means often having to hear the word “no”, returning home defeated and feeling rejected in body and soul.

A warrior never gives in to fear when he is searching for what he needs. Without love, he is nothing.

He…….is……fine.

Best known as Dr. Avery on ABC’s “Grey’s Anatomy,” he was also the male lead in Rihanna’s music video for “Russian Roulette.” Handsome man, lovely eyes, better smile. ;o)

Red full lips, large hoops, sleek ponytail.

All spark a thought of Sade, who just dropped her new album “Soldier of Love” after TEN YEARS!!!!

I love her. The album is haunting, soulful, and lovely. I wouldn’t expect anything less from her.

50 yrs old and still one of the most beautiful women I have EVER seen.

Peep her on the April 2010 cover of Ebony magazine.

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Dory: Hey there, Mr. Grumpy Gills. When life gets you down do you wanna know what you’ve gotta do?
Marlin: No I don’t wanna know.
Dory: [singing] Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming. What do we do? We swim, swim.

ANY and EVERY Latina should know who this is. I am not usually a fan of telenovelas for a range of reasons…LOL. But one day, while doing my hair at my cousin’s house, she had on “Cuidado Con el Angel” and there on the screen was this beautiful man.  LoL.

He….is…fine.

Check out some flicks of him below.

…….DrooL…….

Tom Binns was commissioned along with Stella McCartney to create a  jewelry collection in collaboration with the Disney Store. The release of the collections will coincide with  the release of Tim Burton’s “Alice in Wonderland” film during the week of March 5th.  Prices range from $100 to $1000.

I adore the Charmed Adventure necklace and the Chesire Cat smile earrings featured in the first photos.

All pieces are featured on www.disneystore.com

In this scene, Dr, Owen Hunt attempts to get his girlfriend, Dr, Cristina Yang to play some baseball. Check out the sentence quoted in RED. Deep.

Owen: Batter, batter, batter, batter.
Cristina: What are you trying…
Owen: You need to stop thinking about what’s gonna happen, you need to focus on what is right in front of you. Now, hit the ball!
Cristina: Oh my god! Oh my god! I got it!

Season 6 Episode 3: “I Always Feel Like Somebody’s Watchin’ Me“

LOVE this.  The ladies look great in the April 2010 issue of Glamour Mag.  Each lady has their own cover in which they rock sequined mini dresses. Pretty blah if you ask me. BUT my FAVORITE shots are the more personalized ones. Check them all out below.

Images Courtesy of Glamour Magazine

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(“Perfect Beginnings” – by Toaster_Crepe—-www.deviantart.com)

Life is full of unexpected things. I was hit with appendicitis the first week of February 2010, which unfortunately also happened to be the first full week of my second semester back in college. Talk about unexpected.  LoL. It had me out of commission for two weeks. Unable to bounce back the next day (duh)….my recovery gave me all that time to think.

The unexpected usually scares the shit out of us. It comes out of the blue and has, for the most part, the WORST timing. Suddenly, we’re faced with a decision to make, a road to walk on (or walk away from), or a detour.  What do you do when faced with the unexpected? Does it leave you scrambling? At a crossroads?

For me, as hard headed as I am, I embraced the repercussions of the pause button placed on my life. This meant giving someone I love a second chance after a very tumultous beginning.  There was a time I thought I could never forgive or forget….a time when my anger, my frustrations, and my hurt seemed to have me in a vice grip. I shook it off with every step and stride he took to prove it was worth a try. And now? I’m deliciously and unexpectedly happy. I guess it’s not always a bad thing, huh?

Is it a risk? Oh shit yeah. Is it scary? Abso-friggin-lutely. But I see a change in the way we deal with each other… it’s almost as if we are beginning at the beginning. There’s more honesty, more consideration, more love. Is it going to be easy? Nah…nothing ever is. Do we have issues that need to be worked through? Yes… we most certainly do. But am I willing to take that chance and try again?  YUP. Making this decision was not made lightly. I struggled with the idea for a long time. There were times I even denied my feelings because I was so intent on being that woman that believed giving a second chance meant I was a sucker (hurt me twice, shame on me kind of thing).  And after much thought and MUCH communication, I decided to throw my middle finger up at my own fears and go for it. I don’t know where we will end up or where this decision will take us. But I hope it’s farther than far…LoL.

YES…..I love you, PTP… let’s BOTH (yes, me too) try not to fuck it up this time, shall we? LoL.

In speaking of communication, I must relay this to the poem I posted today “Black Hole.”  The piece was written as a way to sound off on the people in my life that were so self involved that they abused the love/friendship we had. It’s smoldering with animosity, but actually, I  wrote it to communicate how strong I am now. 

I am happy now,sure…. but my reasons for writing the poem, for distancing myself from certain heavy presences in my life…for putting up my own walls is not because I have finally found happiness….HA, I wish it were that easy!  You see, there have been many a time I have allowed the drama and the bullshit to repeat itself. It became apparent that I was always the one reaching out, communicating about an issue, trying to solve it on my own. Responses were usually brick wall blank faces, cold shoulder treatment, bullshit subliminal messages, covert little mind fucks and dramatical dramatics…LmaO. 

 I finally decided that if a person in my life cannot communicate their emotions (whether it’s good or bad), if they cannot tell me when I have wronged them or made them happy…then what is the relationship good for really?  How is it productive to play the same record over and over again? How can a person resolve matters with silence and a quick brush off? How can one person resolve matters by pretending it never happened? You can’t loves…as nice and easy breezy as that sounds, it just doesn’t work like that. Because, just like my scenarios, the record will just spin the same song, even when you pretend not to hear it. The issue is still there, waiting for the opportunity to rear its head again.  I know the words of the song already… let’s play something else. 

In order to resolve things, communication and honesty is needed. Just like I said…here is the problem, let’s find a resolution. Does it suck that some people in my life need to fade out for awhile until they get what I mean? FUCK YEAH! Do I miss these people? YES. But you see, I am a talker and I realize how difficult it may be for others to express their TRUE emotions and not some sugar coated appearance to the world. I get it. But putting your emotions in the back of the closet like out of style shoes….by closing the door on communicating the issues… you close the door on ever resolving and repairing things with me.  

In saying all of that, PTP and I have decided that this will no longer be us. We realized that one of our biggest issues was the fact that we hid things from each other. Omission of the truth is still a betrayal, is still a lie. So we decided…even if it sears the heart, even if it sucks to hear, even if it hurts….we say it. Honesty and communication are paving the way for us. I can dig it.  I am taking a HUGE risk in laying my heart and my intentions bare like this, and it’s uncomfortable because I have no idea what the future holds. But even if it doesn’t work…I can walk away knowing I played my cards right, knowing I showed my hand….knowing I didn’t bluff.

Now….let me address you, my beautiful loving readers. What I want you to take from this is simple….embrace the unexpected changes and moments of life because it’s only God telling you that you put the track on repeat…time to drop another beat, homey. Live your life honestly.  There’s only one you and one life to live, and a deceit to the world is a deceit to yourself.  NEVER be afraid to communicate how you feel with people in your life. It’s a shame when you have to walk away from a friendship or a lover because of a lack of communication.

It’s easy to communicate though…here, I’ll help you begin at the beginning:

“I feel….insert emotion here.”

Until next time my darlings

;o) @Imani_Sublime —follow me on Twitter y’all!

(“Destruction” By Evelin_novemberdusk–www.deviantart.com) 

You attempt to control the universe
with your woes….
Treat galaxies like specks of dust…
and remain aloof to the stars…
expecting it all to revolve around you.

I fell into the waves….
one minute I was perfection….
the next a scrap of waste…
torn to shreds by wanting to understand your tides…
the whats and whys.

But I no longer sympathesize
with the emptiness of your eyes…
No longer give attention
to what others mistake as depth….
and to what I now see
as selfish puddles of me
and my….
and mine….

For it was never about anything more
than how the entire world
has wronged you…
betrayed you…
left you.

When all along it was you who burned bridges.

You who tarnished gold…
crushed diamonds into dust
just for a moment’s entertainment….

I became bored with that….
Saw you for who you were…
exposed you to the sun….
and watched the sugar coating melt to
reveal the tarred heart.

You are your truth….
and the truth is spoken through actions.

Blazing across my life like streaks of sun….
I never could really see you without blindness.

I hung silent like the moon…
waxed and waned at your comfort…
until I exploded against the sky…
realizing I was just as celestial as you perceive yourself to be.

Try to swing the planets back your way….
attempt to control the movements of the Earth…
feel free to believe what you need against me…..

But I will never be trapped again….
never race on an endless track…
never repeat the words I spilled on paper…
I will never be warped into your black hole again…

Here is Anne Hathaway looking sultry and sexy in the February 2010 issue of British GQ.  Absolutely gorgeous. I love this shoot.

Photography by Mark Seliger

One of her first times in the spotlight, Nicole Richie was the uber party girl, getting into all sorts of trouble with all the wrong people. Rising from the self destruction of addiction and even a rumored eating disorder, Richie has changed her public persona that fits a woman who has GROWN and progressed. Creating her own clothing and jewelry lines, giving birth to two adorable children, and even as a fashion icon, Nicole is a celebrity phoenix.

I can appreciate change and progression.  I can appreciate growth.  I think she’s pretty awesome.  I’ve always liked her boho-chic style and I LOVE the new brunette chunky-banged look she’s rocking in the March 2010 of Marie Claire (this issue is a scorcher).

Photography by Ben Watts

Image found on Google Image

My homegirls Sydney and Andrea make these awesome pins and murals using perler beads. Sparking a craze, the girls plan on having their own complete art show and sell their pins and creations via their new blog.

Each pic posted of a pin or mural is listed with the title and the pricing.  If you’re interested or even want a custom piece, feel free to email them at the below addy and join the facebook fan page. 

I really look forward to seeing what the girls come up with on this new blog. Awesome stuff.

CONTACT INFO:

www.facebook.com/pixelsperinch

Pineapplepixels@gmail.com

Janet is always a go-to when you reference fierce women.  C’mon…. “Pleasure Principle,” “Rhythm Nation,” “If,” etc etc etc. You already know. An icon…you don’t even have to say her last name to know who I’m talking about…LoL.

I LOVE her and I LOVE these photos.  Out on 2/5/2010, Wonderland Magazine has Janet looking devilishly sexy and sleek. That smile, the black elegant clothing…She looks great! Enjoy!

Photography by Aitken Jolly

A few things about this young lady I met via Twitter and later through Revolution Ladies Night:  She loves poetry, makeup, and she loves her boyfriend. LoL.

When I met Jess, my first impression was that she was beautiful and she seemed so quiet, very observant. Then, on the night of RLN’s open mic, she recited a very powerful and meaningful poem that she had written.  I knew then that this was one female that was going to make a very powerful mark on the world…..she’s  just smart enough to choose carefully who belongs in it.

On her site, which recently became its OWN DOMAIN (u go girl)….she talks of her life and what makes her happy and sad. It’s fun and cute and very girly. SUPPORT MY HOMEY!!!!!

In her own words: 

The name is Jessica ; but many know me as SimpllyGorjess. I am an inspiring poet; writer; & artist. I have always enjoyed writing poetry and short stories. It’s something about making up my own happy ending; however I want it that keeps me inspired. I use my blog to write just about anything that lets my creative juices flow. I enjoy finding unique pieces of art whether it be a painting; street art; or a poem  piece/ spoken word. I like showing people something they cant usually find by opening a magazine or newspaper. I go from Makeup blogging to Old school Hip Hop songs which I feel can lift anyones mood up. I started my blog because I felt I had a voice that needed to be heard. Many people out there have interest or talents that they have yet to figure out; and I want to be the inspiration to others that all is possible and that they can find it within them.  If you stay positive , everyone around you will also be positive..I feel my blog can make that difference to some people that are just down and out; without hope or any type of motivation in life. I think any person can find at least one blog on my site to which they find was written just for them. I speak on all genres of music ; I have a passion for fashion; & anything with color or that sparks the artist in me. I also take many request as to what my readers want me to post, and if its something I consider to write on it gets added to the blog site. Feel free to teach me or influence me into any other topics of interest. I am down to earth and open minded to all of what my readers want to see from me. 

On Valentines Day, my boyfriend (<3) and I saw the preview for the new biopic movie “The Runaways” starring Dakota Fanning as lead singer of The Runaways, Cherie Currie. I am so excited to see the film. Dakota Fanning is becoming such a fashionable young woman…. and her acting talent is blossoming with each film.

Here she is in the March 2010 issue of Vogue Italia, looking very bold and high fashion.  I’m not a fan of the dark eyebrows, but I appreciate the styling and the photography. Very cabaret, 1970’s glamour in the first two photos. LOVES.

Images courtesy of Vogue Italia

“….We walk in shoes too big
But you play it like a poet,
Like you always did.
And I lay face upturned on the palm of God,
Pushed on by the fingertips of dreams,
They haunted me,
Consoling me.

And I would like to call, call it beauty,
Strained as love’s become, it still amazes me
And I would like to call it beauty, ….”

Here are two fine ass guys in their underwear.  LoL

Nah, seriously, this is Mehcad Brooks, who played Eggs on “True Blood” and now plays Malcolm Bennet on ABC’s “The Deep End,”( which is awesome and comes on before Grey’s Anatomy…LoL) and Kellan Lutz , who plays Emmett Cullen in the Twilight movies.

Here they are modeling for the ad campaign of the debut of Calvin Klein’s X Underwear. Smoking hot.

Photography by Mikael Jansson